after twenty years...

you know I've been thinking about finding old Friends on face book.and it has been kinda disappointing. i don't know what i was expecting,but it wasn't what i got. i mean people i was close to have bean distant,and some less than strangers.i have been puzzled at least for a while.and than i started thinking. high school was only fore years long and i knew most of these people for maybe five years total.and at that i was in contact with them for an hour hear and there,and maybe a few Horus after school,and some times a good part of the weekend.not as much time as i originally thought.although i must admit the teenage years were a very pivotal time in my, and every ones life.it was a time when we were trying on the personality's' that we were going to ware in our adult life.finding what worked and what didn't.it made us venerable and we showed that to each other out of necessity,as we learned to mask our inner self's.but it didn't last and we moved on to have those adult lives that we practiced on each other for those short years.when i stop to put it all in perspective,i have been with my wife for ten years now,almost three times longer than high school. not to mention that the time i have spent with her has been constant.its easy to get caught up in the past,and expect to pick up where you left off,but you cant we are not who we were.we have been wearing our adult persona's for far to long now.we can never be as venerable as we once were.all that has past never to rise again. the twenty year high school Reunion is just hopeful thinking,people coming together and basking in what was.ill just hold my wife a Little closer,and enjoy what is.